For The Lonely

Sometimes I think that there are certain people who are destined to be alone.  No matter how they try to remedy this problem it simply won’t go away. After a while, a small few give up and find contentment in their solitude. Others continue to find a solution.

Maybe there is nothing really wrong with being alone. Perhaps the problem is that people confuse “alone” with “loneliness”. From my own personal experiences I have been in the midst of many people and felt completely invisible. Loneliness can happen anywhere. I think that being alone and feeling lonely can be a lethal combination but, loneliness is the worse of the two.

There are benefits that can come from being alone. One should be able to find a level of comfort and openness. I feel that I am in my most natural state when I am alone. Embracing isolation has not always been my choice but, I have a sense of peace about it. Not everyone can say the same.

After years of trying to fit in and be liked by other people, I just decided to be cool with myself. There are some people who never dare to; go to the movies by themselves, dine alone, or even talk to their self. I have done all of the above and I don’t feel bad about any of it. I don’t say any of this to be boastful. I just understand the importance of finding value in my “alone time”.

I used to admire girls who always had a man or even friends for that matter. My life has hardly been as such. I can count on both hands how many actual boyfriends that I’ve had and even less for true friends. Even now that I am in a relationship, I still spend quite a lot of time alone. Perhaps this is my comfort zone that I am not willing to depart with.

For me, loneliness is the real issue. Loneliness has been a lifelong companion of mine. Could it be possible that I have spent so much time alone that I don’t know how to relate to people when they are around? It is such a strange notion to me to have someone by my side and still feel lonely. I just assumed that one would cancel out the other.

I have not been able to shake my lonely feelings and refuse to embrace them. I am not at a point of giving up. I just have to remember to keep trying and reaching out to whoever will receive me. I encourage anyone else to do the same.